Long relationship post inbound...

The last bit of love I held for my ex-girlfriend vanished today. And it feels... so free. She built me up to give me the foundation to become the man I want to be. She was a good woman. But at the end she wasn't the same girl I fell in love with. I was just too in love to really feel it at the time. A lot of good memories I have to forget now. Painful to see her with another guy so soon, but now I know that she's okay with losing me for good. I can now move on and continue with my goals, learn from our relationship, and give someone better. I expect she'll do the same.

That being said, the months from February to late April I fell off the wagon hard as the relationship crumbled. I gained a good chunk of weight back, back up to 225. Once I moved in May, I restarted my diet, and began training harder than I ever have in my life. I'm now back down to 207 and for the first time in my life I'm confident enough to go running without a shirt. I live in a hip area with a lot of young professionals, and I've been frequenting the bars a bit. Met some nice people but always held back due to the feelings I held onto for my ex. Now I can go out and have fun again while having a body I'm confident in.

I'm also going to Vegas with the guys over Labor Day, and I hope to be a few ticks under 200 for that and looking sharp.

I guess the moral of my story is to try to channel your negative energy and feelings into working out and dieting diligently. And that it's a hell of a lot easier to work out when the only weight on your shoulders is actual weights, not emotions. Sometimes shit don't work the way you want it to. You gotta learn to react the right way. I wasn't doing it right up until this point.

And because I know she at least used to sometimes read my reddit posts, if you're reading this, just know that I had a great time. You know that.