I have murder fantasies

I just think that people who go out of their way to screw others over, rob, assault, put people down, abuse, rape, etc. are a waste of life. I have come to know all of those types of people throughout life.

I'm en empath (I have too much empathy) + I have social disorder and I was screwed over beyond repair and I did nothing because the idea of revenge made me anxious and I was afraid I'd regret it. Ofcourse, I was too naive about the world. How could I regret revenging on a person who raped me for 3 years and stole from me and encouraged me to commit suicide? I thought his guilt concience would be enough but for the pasy 3 days I realize alot of people don't have it. On reddit I posted a thread about being distressed about accidently seeing a video of people being burnt alive and people told me I was sensitive and should grow up.

I have literally grown up in a civil war and been abused by a pedo and somehow I was stupid for empathizing. In this point I said I was crying and feeling bad, and people said ''get over it''.

In this post, I also expressed wishing the people who enjoyed the video to go through the same thing. And people attacked me for that, instead of the sickos in the comment section enjoying watching a child being burnt alive.

I also have social anxiety, depression, over and over again I've been screwed over, because I'm too nice, too afraid to stand up for myself and each time I think it's my fault. But truly, I have a mental illness and PTSD which makes me easy to take advantage off. And people do all the time.

I'm 22 and in 10 years, I think that my extreme niceness will turn to me wanting to destroy evil like you. Atleast in fantasy.

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