Hmm yes, and no, and I hope you're truly asking. I'm just annoyed, bored, mad, sad, frustrated. Honestly above all just want to talk to people. Out here, in here, doesn't matter. Fuck even my partner hasn't seemed to attempt to listen to anything I've ever been interested in over the past lets say 16-18 months, I can't remember. Not even anything to do with this stuff. I ask he says no. He shows, I just listen, ask questions, whatever. So I dunno, i feel stuck in a million ways and have no clue what to really do. I know how nuts I sound, sometimes, I just need someone to hear it, and point me somewhere. Cause now I'm jobless, practically living alone with someone, and the whole worlds gone crazy, and as insane as it sounds, I have a vast knowledge of this conspiracy shit, the blogs and the like. NOT a believer of them, but more of an observer, I'll call it. Because that's all I have to do. I just see it fucking things up, it's crazy so I sound crazy talking about it, and we're back to the first sentence.

I can't be concise, I honestly don't know how apparently, but I'll try here! Message boards we're just a big part of my life. It seems like no one "gets it" whos ben joing since the last few years since FB became a thing, and things are getting bad, arguably they are already... So I don't know where to go, who to talk to, and fuck even apparently don't how to talk at all. Nothing for me to look forward to. Think I'm just slippin off the deep end with the others... and kinda wish people asked them what you asked me years ago... Right now I want to learn programming, but I don't see the point right now. The money runs out some day. I don't wanna feel like a leech. So I just wonder what my place is in all this. What the hell can I do?

No. Not sure that I am. If it concerns you enough though, I don't want to die, mostly just cry. But then what?