Thank you for your response. I don't want or need to call CPS. We have dealt with them in the past. My dad is far more understanding now. But you are right about my moving out or something. Right now, it is not a possibility for me to do so. However, the concept of space and removing myself from this situation is correct. I plan on focusing my time and effort on that, and limiting my contact with my dad and siblings. I believe I've come to a point of accepting everything about my childhood, and think it's best to now focus on working myself and leaving it behind me. I have considered therapy, but I think I've done a lot of my healing. I also know I only become self-destructive with prolonged periods at home, around my family. So putting space between me and them, is my best option for now! Thank you so much for listening. I think i really just wanted an opinion of someone who isn't close to me (as friends can be more sympathetic) and I really wanted an impartial opinion based on my explanation. Thank you!