This was my ex and I for two years, word for word. It got worse and harder for me to get shot down over and over again, and really messed with my head. He never expressed how he felt for me on any level other than sex that I initiated, and not being able to hear the things I needed to was awful.

After things got bad enough, I found out he was talking to another girl behind my back. Which is fine, people can have friends and I believed him that she was just a friend. It finally got to the point where I was getting ignored for her and even though I was there taking care of him, she was on his mind. It broke my heart and I had the worse time with the break up. I was done though, and was so proud of myself for sticking up for how I knew I deserved to be treated. They slept together a little after I left, and as soon as she got bored, he tried getting me to come back. All while still not telling me that he actually loved me back. I started dating my now boyfriend and its honestly the best thing that's ever happened to me.

He is the complete opposite and its exactly what I needed. He holds my hand and he kisses me all the time. He treats me like gold and I never in a million years thought I'd deserve let alone find the love I'd always dreamt of. I'm almost 33 weeks pregnant with our first child, a little boy. I didn't know I could be this happy on every level possible.

It's totally up to you on which direction you go. I'm not going to say to leave him or stay, because you gotta hit that point when you're ready. I'm just here to let you know that that's not how someone you're in a relationship with us supposed to treat you, and the real thing is out there waiting. You want to feel it all and it isn't there, but I know the feelings still are which is the hard part. But eventually, when you're ready, someone will sweep you off your feet and teach you how real love feels; the full weight of REAL love. The love you deserve every minute of every day.

Sorry this was so long, I'm a little emotional. Hah.