Thanks for your response. I took your advice and was able to contact a hotline. Turns out there has been a shelter within a 6 minute walk from where I live.

You brought up some great points, I really appreciate your help. No, I wouldn't be this way if things were switched. It is weird, I can't even imagine telling someone I love them and making demands and choking them when i don't get my way. It's crazy. I cant imagine choking anyone at all. I actually can't imagine doing a lot of things that he does to me. You're right.

Thank you for letting me know that leaving can be that dangerous. I actually discussed moving out with my mom last week and, she is hesitant to have me move back but she also mentioned that guys can "go crazy" when you leave. My mom has only been in abusive relationships, so I think that's where the generalization of "guys" and not "abusive people" came from.. I didn't think much of it at the time actually, but given this second warning I will try to plan to leave while he's at school or something then.

Thank you so much again. It was really helpful to know that there's a hotline for this sort if thing as well. I had no idea.