sometimes I feel like people just truly do not get what a migraine entails

I have had them since I was a child and they truly have crippled the biggest moments of my life

I would get excited for school trips but then my anxiety would cause my to stress out about it as well and by the time I got to the day of the trip... migraine city.

grew up in a yelling, screaming, threatening, scary household. migraine city... no one truly got it though what I Was going thru.

ever since I was 20, I get migraines when I stress out or the weather is really bad outside... aka. lots of pressure in the air. spring time is worse for me.

my last one I had, was the most mortifying for me. I woke up that morning with all the signs and symptoms of a massive migraine to come. I called my boss to try and call off work. I work in management, and all the managers were going on an outting with the big president of the company. I was so sick, I tried so hard. I called in tho. she said to me "so and so pays you big bucks to not get sick. he would be so disappointed if you did't come" I went.. pumped with meds and smoked enough weed to make me tolerate the migraine pain (weed helps TREMENDOUSLY with migraines... lord bless the ganj)

we took a van .. all piled in.

got to the outting destination... got half way thru the day, meds wore off

I was a mess.

we were in a management meeting/huddle where the president was giving a speech. I had to get up a total of 12 times to go throw up in the bathroom just to make my migraine go away for 3 minutes only for it to come back

I contemplated calling my dad to come get me (we were hour and half from where we came from)... but I didn't (I should of)

the looks on the presidents face, my coworkers. they were like "What in the fuck is with this girl???"

I didn't want to be there, the boss thought my migraine was nothing and I could "shake it off"

on the way home:

I laid in the back of the rented van, while the president drove us home. all management in the van. myself laying in fetal position in the trunk/back silently trying to puke with dignity into a walmart bag.

my boss not saying a word the whole time

Most mortifying day of my life

I also got a migraine like that at my best friends wedding. met her in kindergarten, best friends til this day (I am 32).... spend the whole reception laying in fetal position on a bench with my date trying not to die while my ride was in a movie ... I had to wait 2 hours on a bench. was blacked out by time I got home

I will never ever forgive myself for not preventing that one. because when you have massive migraines.. you learn some tricks on how to prevent them. I now am paranoid not to use them, after missing my best friends wedding

tldr, fuck migraines

I black out, throw up, cry, get disoriented, dizzy, confused when I have migraines... yet no one around me takes them seriously except people who get them and know it or people who have seen me first hand suffer from one