My boyfriend passed away last week and I just want to die.

"He needed me and I wasn't there for him. " Respectfully, that is simply not true. He needed so much more than you. He was literally in the safest place he could have been and he needed more than all of them. This is a burden that you need not bear.

The top comments here, and their suggestions on getting help, say what I want to say. Dr., counselor, family and friends are all good. If any grief in any circumstances causes you to question the worth of your own mortality, then it's time to see a Dr. specifically.

It's not your fault. The most gracious of sympathies from across the internet. Your life is valuable, and you will absolutely see that again when you recover from this trauma. Recovery will come. The end of this foul emotional pain, as well some deep meaningful enjoyment will absolutely come for you. Baby steps. Focus on necessities. Then focus on recovery. Life is good, people are good, and the balance in life (the good) to this having happened will come. We have your back.

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