WOw, I kinda feel bad now (not really) clearly you are mentally deranged and have some deep seated trust issues. The fact that you can churn out such a disjointed, schizotypal rant really makes my skin crawl. I can;t imagine what sort of disgusting cavern you live in, but certainly projecting your own latent homosexual desires onto others isn't the best way to get out of it. You really are a disgusting abomination of a bigot aren't you? Clearly. your immediate family has already put some distance between themselves and you, (good for them, I'm ready to do the same! The only solace I take is in the realization that only through the complete stigmatization of disgusting bigots like you can decent people ever make progress.