so sorry for you. of course it appears as if the world stopped, since you're forced into a permanent feeling of loss and grief, while for others the world goes on and they live their daily lives. i'm glad you're not alone and have a comforting community around you.

surely somebody told you or you heard it once before: the pain will never go away, but you'll learn to live a "regular" life at some point, as long as you don't give up.

please don't sit around alone and let your mind go wild - make sure there's always someone around you. you shouldn't be alone right now, otherwise your mind does its own thing and that won't end well. maybe a family member, friend or neighbour can live with you for a while, just to distract you a little, get you out of the house and prevent you from falling into a hole - or digging the one you're in deeper.

man, there's no words to make you feel better, and i know myself how hurtful certain consoling phrases can be. let your feelings out or they'll eat you up from inside.

still, best wishes and thinking a lot of you this day.