I'm turning 21 on the 21st of July. 3 years ago i realised that i had a drug problem. (btw broken arm typing w/ one hand). i was addicted to benzos (clonazepam,xanax,valium,ativan) amphitamines (mdma vyvanse) ratilin, weed, k2 spice, codeine, lyrica, tramadol k2 spice, alcohol, alcohol, also dropped shrooms, truffles, and nootropics(modafinil etc .. ). never ODed.(everyone envy me for what i have even my brother whom i still love so much). i more or less inherited (thought that what real men did) the habit from my dad LOL, sad but i find it funny now. he oded on heroin, god bless his soul heroin soulja ;'( . i was in spain, i only dealt with dealers for mdma weed and ketamine. grew my own shrooms bought truffles online. pharmaceuticals were not too cheap. but i was a pilot and made really good money. i know, flying planes and being a junky, and being too young. lets say i come from a rich family as well. a year ago. i made it clear to myself that i have to make a major life change. (during a shroom trip lol) so i resigned from my job. moved out from Spain, gave away all my stuff to charity. threw all drugs and a my gun into the sea. (never used my gun) and went to stay with my mom. changed my phone number snapchat instagram. told all my friends that im married so theyll forget about me. everything changed. i felt like shit when i first got in my moms place. i went to a psychatrist. was daignosed with ptsd depression and anxiety. the dr put me on zoloft and rivotril. i say fuck this no more dependency on pills. i drop shrooms again (which i had stored at my moms from an old batch). i start noting what ill do with my life and my new approach to everything around me. i start tapering off benzos with my moms ativan ( took her permission). joined university(3.4 gpa in airframes and engines engineering). started exercising slowly, when i ever i felt like it at the beginning. made new friends and never told them about my past. started horse show jumping. bought a decent camera and now im an advanced photographer. and learning my 4th language now.
it was not easy. i still get cravings occasionally. stay strong and focused on what you want and need. focus on what you truly believe you are. what you wanted to be as a kid when no negativity influenced you. drugs really make you negative and moody, aggressive towards yourself and others and you wont even realise it until its too late. i really thought i was crazy, psychopath, nothing mattered, i had everything i wanted. a good job, car, money, house. (only lost my job). but what are they worth man when i'm turning to a zombie ? shrooms helped me understand that we're all the same its just we get influenced by changes us, and we can control what we get influenced by. sorry for my unorganised story lol. still missing some parts but they aren't too important. feel free to ask me anything mate !!