Judging from ur photo you prob surround yourself with people who think you’re so edgy bc you’re a woman who likes cosplay and comics. But you don’t have any real friends or relationships. You have very little emotional control and are yourself stuff long with everyday tasks and you feel ok imposing yourself and relying heavily on others both offloading emotionally on them and financially so you sympathize withOP and feel that you are entitled to this from other people because you’re hurting and you can’t possibly be expected to function. But you’re a leech and you will find that once people get close they get tired of your special snowflake routine and leave u also.