my father abandoned me , can i abandon him?

i never mentioned about mental health but you sort it. anyway thanks ive been battling deppresion for a year. now last 2-3 months have been very difficult lets say worst of worst. only reason im not committed suicide is because i don't wanna die without emaan. I asked about it because i feels like i been tested or punished. im not very good , nor a bad a kind hearted person , didn't committed big sins . im saying all these because deeper in my mind something telling its punishment because u ignoring or bcoz not going to see your father

sorry for broken English not from native English speaking country also pray for me to give me strength and patience

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