You remind me of myself. At the threshold of my final year, I had been through a messy breakup, put on weight, had failed a subject, had average grades and I was having an existential crisis. Placements were around the corner, and life was getting scary. I felt like I was being forced to grow up which I didn't want to. Also I was worried I'd be useless in the real world after I graduate. It was a horrible period of my life. This is how I got out of the rut:
I focused on the immediate task at hand; figuring out what I wanted to do right after college- work, studies or travel. I was unsure so I went with the stream and decided to focus on placements. I pulled up my socks, worked on core skills with the help of my academically genius best bud, and landed a decent offer. PS: Three months later, I ended up rejecting the offer and spent a year travelling. But the feeling of a 'safety net' that a job offer gives you helps you think freely about your future.
Next my favourite. I carefully chose friends that I wanted to keep for the rest of my life and made efforts to strengthen the bond. This help me ease up and smile. Had fun times. It's been months since I talked to them but I can call them at 2am tonight and they WILL pick up. That's what I EARNED in college. Making lifelong friends becomes difficult once you become a working adult. College is your last sure shot chance. Bury hatchets, focus on making people happy. Be fun. You'll reap benefits when you're 27 and lonely on a Thursday night.
The death of a friend's parent made me realise that my parents wouldn't be around forever. So in my last year at home, I mended relationship with my parents. I forgave them for things they didn't buy me when I was 12. I sat down with dad as opposed to avoiding him and listened to his rant about the government and just nodded along. I also helped mom around the house. It gave them a feeling that their boy had grown up and would do ok on his own. Best feeling in the world for them and me.
Things just fell into place after that.