He’s a really great person in a lot of ways, and I certainly haven’t been anywhere near perfect. I just don’t understand how he can say things like, “all I want is to give you the opportunity to be whatever you want,” and then later tell me that he needs me to put my dreams on hold indefinitely so that I can continue working full time. Yes, he gives me a free place to live, and that’s definitely very helpful, but I’m getting very sick of being treated like a disobedient child. If you love someone, don’t you want to do what you can to stop their suffering? He knows how unhappy I am at my job and that going there every day is torture for me. Telling me I may have to be stuck there another 2-3 years or more AND that I can’t finish my degree is absolutely crushing. It also puts me in the position where I can never support myself or leave him because I can’t afford to live on my own and pay my student loan debt unless I get this degree. I don’t make enough at my current job. He freaks out if he even has to work one 8 hour day, and then he tells me that I need to just accept working a full time job that I despise because it’s what most people have to do. How can he be so hypocritical? My stomach is constantly in knots and I feel physically sick from anxiety being at my job. It’s extremely difficult to find another job that pays even that shitty amount I currently make though. Most jobs around here offer less than $15 per hour with no benefits. I just feel so completely trapped and alone. My parents are extremely poor and can’t help me at all, and they live too far away from school for me to live with either of them. My car is a piece of garbage that shakes all the time, and I’m just waiting for that to fall apart. I’m truly just fucking trapped.