I don’t mean to come off as harsh, but you really need to seek help otherwise you will bring people down/make them resent you. I had severe anxiety for most of my life, but I literally had to find ways to overcome it in order to survive. My SO at the time left me at my darkest time- I was physically and mentally ill, lost my job, got into a car wreck (car totaled). I was destitute and had 0 support. My survival mode kicked in and I told myself that I wouldn’t allow myself to just “wither away” from anxiety. I knew I was capable of being a strong, successful, independent human being. I pushed myself to apply for jobs outside of my comfort zone, and eventually landed a position which requires me to brief in front of top brass on a daily basis. Practice along with having amazing therapists has allowed me to live my best life today. You are strong and have the power to overcome it. Just give yourself that little push one day at a time, and start with therapy.