My kundalini process / ego death

Your experiences are interesting in their way. However, "self-realization" is a pretty big term to be throwing around and I'm wondering why you chose to use it.

Countless thousands of meditators have transitory experiences of enlightened states. But that's very different from self-realization as such. And the vast majority of such meditators stop way short of claiming self-realization.

If you would like to know more about what enlightenment, or self-realization, really feels like, how enlightened, self-realized beings think and act and how people usually understand that term, you might want to read what acknowledged enlightened beings have to say about it. It might also help you understand and evaluate your own experiences.

You might, for example, check out the well-known and much-loved Autobiography of a Yogi by Yogananda or Muktananda's autobiography. BTW, Steve Jobs is known to have kept a copy of Yogananda's autobiography on his personal iPhone.

Meher Baba's biography is also easily accessible. I believe there are free pdf versions of it available online. There are many other such biographical accounts. Some take the form of full length books. Many make up sections in other books.

There are also numerous anecdotes and axioms about the experience of enlightenment scattered throughout the vast literature of ancient and modern spirituality. e.g. "Before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water. After enlightenment, chop would and carry water."

In addition, living, practicing spiritual teachers like Adyashanti and Mooji, and others, speak often of what it is like to be enlightened. Matt Kahn is a relative new comer and, IMO, although he is a promising figure, his work remains to be fully evaluated. There are many others out there.

So there's an awful lot of stuff on this general subject out there and many of us here are, or should be, familiar with it. All spiritual aspirants would benefit greatly by familiarising themselves with it.

My point is, if you think you have achieved enlightenment or self-realization you might want to check your experiences against the information in these sources before making the claim. I'm guessing that, given the way you used the term "self-realization," you aren't familiar with them.

I think deleting the claim to self-realization would go a long way toward fixing your OP. I think we need to keep the discussion real and random claims of enlightenment or self-realization work against that. It's certainly not a crime to claim self-realization, but it's not a claim you want to make lightly.

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