A few years ago before I was medicated, if I seen a knife I would have an overwhelming compulsion to hurt myself with it. I knew I had to try and fight the compulsion because I worried if people found out they might see me as unfit to be a mother to my child. And I was worried because I had the urge to just stab myself and I had to think of my child and how it would affect them.

I needed help I went to a Dr, and told them about my crippling depression which led to me being put on antidepressants, these antidepressants actually reduced my OCD thoughts and compulsions.

I still feel the occassional urge to harm myself but it tends to be less severe, I squeeze and pull at my fingernails now (gross I know).

OCD is horrible but you can do something about it, get professional help CBT and medication can change your life for the better.