My messed up, clusterfuck, trainwreck of a life. This is from the heart, and now I'm lost. Enjoy DB.

You just gave me better life advice than my father could ever give. If I were already making the big bucks, I'd honestly PayPal you for typing all that up and being so genuine with me. I'm not joking.

I almost feel like a 3rd eye just popped out of my forehead after reading that. Jesus.

I don't even know how to respond, but I can say thanks. It's nice to know there is someone else out there on this planet that understands me.

I am a cork floating around, letting the ocean and currents and winds control me life. I've been this way for awhile. My motto has always been, "live life day-by-day, don't stress about the past or present", because I have anxiety and it helps me cope.

The only thing I actually want to really elaborate on with you, is that I've been goddamn proud I managed to be faithful for 10ish years. And every relationship previously, I never cheated. This is all completely new to me, and I'll take that to my grave.

I did it because of resentment, and because in some fucked up way I feel like I found my true soul-mate. I'm the type of guy that when satisfied, any attraction to other women becomes obsolete. If I met FWB 5+ years ago, I wouldn't have given her the time of day, but she entered my life at a time and place where I was vulnerable, and she checked all the right boxes.

I'm not sure if you're joking about the feet stuff, but if you weren't you could consider us "cousins" in fetishes, because mine is legs. I love nice legs, thighs, and them covered in nylons and stockings, and feet sometimes get included in that when the girl has those on. It's really such a minor fetish, and the "yellow fever" I have really doesn't help my situation. I'm kinda disgusted with myself in why these things matter to me so much.

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