Dude ight listen up, don’t kill you self. I will let you uk that u r not the only one and that doesn’t mean u deserve any of this. I believe that time has its ups and downs and u are going through ur worst point in ur life currently but trust me when I say this it will get better cus there is no was anyone can go through their entire life without anything nice happening cus that’s just rare and let me tell u this too, this might be the last time u have to go through this low point u will come across bad points in life later but maybe never this low again and u should be glad that it might just be over after u get through this and u should really try looking into the future and try planning on how u can get out of this mess and build from ground up. That my friend will be the start of ur life again. Make sure u embrace this point of life and later u will get soo busy enjoying life that u will forget about all this but please do not kill yourself cus someday someone might be in need of a person like you. If not anyone I have faith in you that u will be successful in life cus this is just life trying to polish u into a beautiful human. Embrace it and have confidence in urself