I wish I didn't so I'd have a proper excuse to keep trying, but I know that 100% they are being manipulative. I'm trying to give as little attention as I can without outright ignoring them, which just seems pointless.

As of today I've been redirecting the conversation or not replying every time it comes up, after those first 13 hours I even outright called them out on their behavior and how they need to stop it because I don't want to be around it, all to no avail. They'll agree with me and apologise, only for them to treat me passive aggressively, ignore me, or just outright start trying to argue about it again minutes later.

Every fiber of my being is saying to completely ignore them until they quit it, but I know for a fact it's not going to go anywhere and they're going to self harm if I do that. They seriously bruised themselves to the point of busting their capillaries last night, then got excited to fucking show it to me, they still keep bringing it up. They make posts on social media that are horrifying as fuck to see. As unavailable as I am emotionally and want to be physically, and as freeing as it sounds, I'm afraid I'll suffocated no matter what I do in this situation.

I'm ready to silently break down for the 1000th time and it's only been a little over 48 hours :/... I can't figure out if the right choice even exists at this point, they went to bed and the last thing they said was maybe they'll eventually get over it. I'm desperate for the bullshit to end but I'm also desperate to not royally fuck something up. It's just hard to navigate.