Seperate from the post incase people don't want to read this.

I have siblings (some like me, some don't). My parent doesn't bother to talk to me unless she has had an argument with her boyfriend. I live far away from my family.

I miss my dogs. Three beautiful dogs. I haven't seen them for four months, thanks to covid and money issues.

I have one friend. He lives nearby. He won't let me in his house because he has housemates (shame?). We have had some bad arguments which I can't forget. I know he cares about me, but I also know he won't talk to me anymore once he has a girlfriend (he is currently dating on apps).

I'm ugly. Never had a boyfriend, never been called pretty. I have a facial deformity, a breast deformity and female hair loss. I also have lots of broken gapped teeth. I have scars, normal and hypertrophic.

I am always having money problems. There are times when I can only live on bread and water. I struggle to keep a roof over my head.

I got bullied a lot growing up and had no friends for six years throughout high school and after that. Words really hurt and don't leave.

I'm so lonely. I like company in real life rather than messaging, and the loneliness hurts so much.

I'm useless. I know people with mental health problems often 'believe' this, but it's true. I don't have any hobbies other than watching tv shows and walking to lakes. I'm literally bad at everything. Don't play games, hangout with people, play sports etc...