My spouse generates strong emotions of fear and anger, and it's affecting my sleep and health.

Wheel of Power and Control

I looked into this. I wouldn't say it's a 1:1, but I see where my situation meets in some partial ways. I haven't had a knife pulled on me. I don't expect that sort of violence.

I'm not convinced that it's a waste of my life yet. And if it were, I couldn't be persuaded to leave on such accord -- as I'm obligated to marriage for religious reasons and also still cling to the romantic ideal of love and honor.

Concerning sticking my D into crazy, this person is my first and only -- having been chaste all growing up until our marriage, I wouldn't quite know any other path. I've had many, many options but decided that of them all (and still strongly believe) this is the happiest route. I cannot see any woman filling the role as partner than mine. And all others who've tried to date me seriously have gone off to do other things and be people I don't find any interest in knowing further.

I had hoped there was a support group for women -- as there are for men -- for simply being less of a dick, frankly. And I understand men are shit, but we have podcasts on being good fathers and husbands that do turn out alright. I wouldn't say I'm at all perfect, but I find that there's a path towards being a decent guy who can care for people and do good in life. How do I help my better half make the same realization (if not realizations, motivation to take action) in this shattered, lonely, and highly competitive world? I don't know.

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