I have zero problem attracting guys. In fact, it's a problem I have to deal with on a daily basis for some reason. Traveling for work, it's tough for me.

But I don't like anyone else like I like him. It's hard to explain. This isn't just about fresh dick for me. I tried that, and I realized that I wasn't missing variety or good sex. This is something else - a rare deep all-consuming connection/attraction that just doesn't come around very often. If you haven't experienced it, it's hard to understand.

Saying that, I realize that he's probably seduced me or spiked my drink with E or something when we were together to make me feel this way.