It is never healthy for a marriage to have friends that are opposite sex, studies have proven this. Take your emotions to a professional such as a pastor or counselor. Stop venting, I'm sure it is a broken record by now. You may not blame her verbally but you are blaming her in your actions, me me me what about me attitude. Do you know what her love languages are? If you don't you need to discover them, The 5 love languages by Gary Chapman. Marriage is WORK, and your first and most important role in your marriage is to show LOVE with words and actions towards your wife. You have a roof over your head, food on your table, you can pay your bills and possibly put a little money away for a rainy day. Those are the important basics of life.