Name a strong delusion you have that you're aware of

This is so strangely typical that I don't even want to post this but my biggest delusion tends to be falling in love. It's happened maybe three or four times now and it gets worse and worse. I somehow managed to convince myself that this girl would eventually recripocate feelings I had for her and we would have some kind of "happy ever after" relationship. Something somewhere told me that this wasn't going to happen but I deluded myself into thinking that it eventually would. I mean no point in going into any detail but I tend to fall really hard for someone and end up obsessing over something happening before I get slapped back down to reality. It kind of sucks because this one delusion of finding someone who would love me is the only thing that really made me want to continue living. It sucks alot and what's worse is that I have all kinds of delusions and problems that I convince myself that I don't have but this one causes me the most emotional pain. It sucks because I see her almost all the time and it just reminds me of the fact that I'll never have the happy ending that I want. It's truly a miserable feeling.

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