Yes youre absolutely correct. I dont know anything about your life. I'm sure you have your reasons for feeling that way, but my advice to you is to not let that overpower you into thinking that what is going on in your life at the moment is permanent. Your issue was clearly the job, so once you find some support financially, you possibly wouldn't feel the exact same way about how terrible your life is? You got a child which is an eternal blessing. My life is LESS terrible with my child in it. And I'm thankful for her because she brings life back into me, when the world makes me feel dead inside. I'm sure you must feel the same way. I pray you value your life and your childs life more than your situation right now. We all deserve some good news and I hope you recieve it soon.