I'm so sorry to hear that my friend. My girlfriend of 5 years just cheated in me with a guy she has known for 2 weeks. It's so painful and you just want to kill yourself. But I think before you do any of that. Please get some help. What helped me was calling a crisis line just to talk to someone. I saw a doctor yesterday and told him and he has prescribed me with anti depressants to help my anxiety and depression. Avoid excessive drinking of alcohol. If you have close friends please talk to them about everything. It can be hard and it was for me, but you'll feel a little better and you'll have some company. You need a state of mind where you can be independent. Do you have hobbies that you think you could join a club or community? I'd say when you are ready try pushing yourself to go meet new people. I mean meeting new people as in meeting new friends or just acquaintances for company. Join a gym or sporting club or martial arts. If you're like me and feeling insecure and just a very low person, I think this will help you. Try to eat and drink. It's hard to keep food down and it's hard to even eat but it will make you feel better. Don't worry I'm still struggling too.

There are plenty of guys out there like you and I who have these feelings my friend and I do hope everything goes ok for you. If you can access even a counselor or something it might help a lot too.