I have ADHD as well. I'm taking the more difficult route, doing what I don't like but I'm good at because I need to. I tell myself this is only going to be a few years and I'm gonna spend that time setting up the life I want.

I spent a decade running away from it. I hit rock bottom twice. In the end, I ended up here because it's the logical choice. If I could do it over, I would have faced the hardships first thing instead of wasting a decade.

You have a lot. You have people around you, you have resources, you have options. There is no easy path. Play the cards you're dealt with. Endure the pain. Take it one step at a time. Survive, find something stable, and then build the life you want on the side.