hi op, I'm gonna start off by giving you a high because it sounds like you could do with one. gives hug I'm so sorry you are going through this. you certainly dont deserve this and never needed it. I will say that if you have lost your passion due to depression, then that is both horrible (I have been through that multiple times with grief for months at a.time) and a gift. it is a gift because to find that passion (or another one) again needs a lot of time for introspection. it requires you to understand what about that degree made you want it and why you wanted it for that. it gives you the opportunity to understand who you are at your roots a bit better. I would also like to say that you certainly arent the "