I need some help.

Okay, keep in mind, that I've been off of weed for about 3 weeks, and that I've only ever lurked in this sub, so as far as credibility, I don't have any. I struggled in pretty much the same way you described it for about 9 years. However, I unknowingly cheated. I took a ten day trip to a country where I knew I just didn't have access to weed(not un purpose), and where the risk of getting it was too high. I just didn't think that in the backdrop of my trip I would miss it too much, so I didn't even try to find some weed, but I knew that when I got back, I would smoke again. At this point in my life, (less than a month ago) I knew that quitting weed was unrealistic, and that I would probably be a smoker for the rest of my days. Near the end of my trip something hit me. I realised I really didn't need it anymore. This was over new years, so I was also high with the expectations I have for this year. I got back and I threw all my glass away. I broke all the glass, because recycling only comes once a week in my neighbourhood, so I didn't want to have the option of digging through my bin, and lighting up again. Also, when I got back, I discovered this subedit, subscribed right away, and unsubscribed from /r/trees . It was all rather serendipitous to tell you the truth. I realise this doesn't help much in terms of method, but this next part I think will. Since I got back all I've done is keep busy, driven and enthusiastic about my work. I'm riding the high of my productivity, and expectations. The thing is, I know this high won't last. I know I will face adversity, I know some or most of my hard work will go unrecognised, I know I will lose drive, but this time I will allow myself to be depressed. This time I will allow the void to grow, and I will allow myself to feel empty when it happens. This time, I will not fill the void with weed. I haven't had any cravings so far, and that's because I know now that what causes my craving for weed isn't a desire to be high, it's my deep hatred and aversion to being bored. It's routine. Being productive is hard, but if you enjoy your work(or hobby) the high you get off of it lasts much, much longer. I hope this helps.

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