Yeah my whole family knows about my illnesses...they had to be part of the process cause I was institutionalized after an attempt. The school knows too, of course.

The problem with my case is that instead of getting a higher level of help after going to the ward, I just ended being put in therapy for 2 days a week, which decreased to 1 in a short time.

My current therapist told me that it shouldn’t have been like that, and I believe that’s why I haven’t recovered as well as everyone thinks I should by now.

The school doesn’t care though. The school psychologist hasn’t talked to me about that and whenever I try to express my concern over that (cause I am genuinely scared to go back to that dark place) she simply calls my mom, which makes me more skeptical about talking to her.

At the same time though, I just need someone to listen to me. I wish I could go to therapy for more than just once a week, but my therapist is unable to do that.

I’m just so alone right now and I got no clue as to what I should do.

(Sorry for rambling on about other stuff!!)