Thank you for taking the time to reply. I don't visit redpill, simply because it doesn't help me in any manner. I am not interested in relationships etc, I don't see it as a part of my life. Their main complaint seems to be that women are selfish, but men are selfish too. So there rants etc don't make any real sense. Now maybe OP thinks he will never find a girl like her and all the putting on a pedestal behavior, which is most probably why he is sinking into depression and thinking about suicide. So seeing the girl as less special might help his get over the slump, hence the red pill idea.

I don't think "man up" is the proper term. I think it is more about being responsible. I have a lot of opportunities to do a lot of things and I should try to improve. May be that is a mind set the OP could adopt. But I think I see what you mean, for someone suffering from depression, invalidating there feelings might not help. But it helped me a lot, when ever I hit rock bottom, I try and see the suffering of other human beings in this world, and that in my mind, makes my pain appear less important and hence it is stupid to waste time on it. So I am able to recover from that slump. Maybe if I continue moving forward, I will be able to help someone. That is a powerful idea which helps me move through my failures. Thank you for offering to help me, I am not being condescending, I am genuinely happy that a human being cares for another human being, even though there is no reward to it. But I see no need for it. I am too egotistical to ever take anyone's advice. I realize this is wrong, but this is just how I am :) .

Though I am curious as to how the "man up" advice hurt you ? In relationships I could see how it could hurt, but in general life, taking personal responsibility seems to in general a good idea. Ofcourse one thing to keep in mind is that guilt is not an efficient idea, so don't spend time on it.