I wrote this for my SO of over 9 years. Thought things would get better after I started school but nah.

"OUR journey is over, but yours is just beginning From awkwardly silent car rides To not seeing each other for an entire work week You're making plans with my friends and that's great

You'll need them once I'm gone Not that I'm anything special, but my departure will be sudden and it may catch you off guard

We drifted apart and for that I'm sorry; it's my fault

But I heard from a third party that you were second guessing "us" and that maybe your "pharmacist ex" was a better choice. Also your cousin seems to think you can do much better than me; I guess I agree.

You did your absolute best, and I just sat there letting my demons win day after day until there was nothing left

I'm sorry keeps coming to mind; but sorry isn't even close to good enough

You're outside at the bonfire while I'm inside typing this with Max next to me, trying to comfort me.

I know he senses something is up, but there's nothing he can do either. I wish he and you could understand; but not even I understand. All I know is I'm not good enough and I never have been. You can and will do so much better.

I tried, though it may not seem like it and I'm sorry for that, but I did what I felt that I could and apparently it isn't good enough since we drifted apart.

I don't know how else to end this except with another sorry and a goodbye.

Also, sorry to have annoyed you to where you shut the door on me (literally).

I love you."