I've realized that there is no "help". "Help" is a carrot on a stick, that is yanked away just as you grab for it. It gets yanked higher and higher until you exhaust all your energy and resources trying to just get a meal. It is immaterial.

The only way for help to be created, like everything in life, is to force the power that be's hands into making it so. I have to hurt and kill a lot of people to make it so it seems. Unfortunate, but the people I take with me will be a message for those in charge to help us poor souls. I've warned them and everyone that I am a ticking time bomb, and sadly it has gone off. Help for the mentally ill and disability rights will be point 2 and 3 of my manifesto. Point one will be simply; I GOT IT ALL LEGALLY