Being a Dom is a whole other level of investment and difficulty. You need extraordinary connection and people skills. Do you think you have those?

No I could not be a dom especially not to that extent.

Do women pursue you on a regular basis? When you date a woman do her friends all think you’re amazing? Do women you sleep with talk about how generous and fabulous you are in bed?

Well I don't get out enough to have women fawning all over me but yes, I have more success with women when I get out there. I'm frequently the one getting with the hottest girl in the bar, etc. but I have this inability to appreciate it because I'm always thinking of group sex, obviously that makes me subconsciously off-putting even if I try to hide it. I have the capacity to be a fiend in bed, please a woman make her orgasm, but with 1-1 sex for the past 5 or so years I'm just thinking about how I can't die without experiencing group sex and how 1-1 can't be as good, so it's hard to be as passionate as I once was.

This whole thing is ultimately fueled by FOMO in regards to group sex and an obsession with it... I don't know how to get around it without doing it so I can get over it. That's why I avidly avoid any stories/accounts because I get like this if I come across any and it undoes months of work trying to be "normal" again. Ironically since I'm obsessed with it my odds of experiencing it, especially in a healthy way, are mostly zero. Maybe what I really need is a therapist.