When did I say I didn’t take responsibility? I’ve been taking responsibility for 14 years? I’ve made the amends. You are assuming things about my story. I made a choice to follow my doctors orders. I took the medication that he told me to take. I took it at the dose he said to take. I never doctor shopped. When I was in more pain, he told me to take more. I didn’t take it to get high... I was in pain too. But I had a personality change. And turned into a completely different person. I saw specialists and they all knew what was happening with this doctor. They didn’t catch the addiction. I kept trying to kill myself. Finally I had a psychiatrist assigned to me who was an addictionologist. I got help in rehab. I turned back into myself. Never have I said in any of these posts that I didn’t take responsibility. But I do not believe that it is solely my responsibility. Never have I ever said that you don’t deserve your medication. I’ve explicitly said the opposite. I was actually supporting the pain patients that need pain control who are not addicts. My issues is with how I’ve been excluded and ostracized from the pain community. Which your post continues to do. I belong here. I’m in pain. I’m in a fucking lot of pain. And it hurts that I’m blamed by people in the pain community. I’m fucking allowed to feel like that. I’m fucking allowed to share that. I live in both the chronic pain community and the recovering addict community. In the latter, I’ve seen people go out. I’ve seen people die. I’ve seen families torn apart. I’ve been to and cried at the funerals. I love how cops and doctors are always saying that I don’t u sweat and how bad it is. I do. I know because they were/are my friends.