Nightly random discussion - May 03, 2020

Medyo mahabang story time.

So I was catching feelings for this girl I met on a social media platform. We were talking for 2 weeks straight. We enjoyed chatting with each other. I was starting to like her.

Beginning of third week, naikwento nya na she's having a 1-day flirting stint, which was extended after a week. I didn't know how to deal with my feelings for her, so I said di muna ako makikipag-usap sa kanya as much as we have these past couple weeks. This hurt her and she had dark thoughts, and I wrestled with myself about explaining the reason why.

Kinabukasan I admitted that I'm starting to like her and that I value our friendship. Sabi niya this won't change anything about our friendship, but she said that she doesn't want to offer false hopes. So we went with that.

We still talked, pero things were inevitably not the same. Medyo nawalan na rin ako ng ganang mag-initiate ng conversation.

One time, she posted asking for ka-video call. Nagkuwento siya na even after that 1 week stint, she still chats and flirts with the guy he met online. Ang weird sa pakiramdam. I was telling myself wala sa hulog selos mo. Pero won't you agree na nakakabaliw pakinggan na the person you like enjoys the company of someone else, lalo na kung alam niya na gusto mo siya.

I know I should probably let her go, but I don't know how. I know she's really lonely, and knowing how scary her reaction was when I told her we won't be talking as much, natatakot akong i-end yung convo formally. I don't want to ghost her tho. I'm in a pickle.

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