It's been one week before restarting and before that, one month. So far, I find that I don't think about my ex negatively anymore. Instead, I understand that they have issues they need to resolve just like me. I only wish my ex the best and release them with love. I remember unblocking them because I am 100% sure they won't reach out and I feel safe now.

This time, I'm working on my own stuff and questioning myself a lot. I want to understand why did I allow myself to be treated like this and how could I have missed the signs. Also, understanding why I felt like communicating my needs and expectations was a sign of weakness but, it's really not. Really, just letting everything go, just trying to forgive myself for being in this kind of situation in the first place.