To be fair, 19 is a tough time. Its rather common to feel uncomfortable in your own skin. Your growing, your hormones are all over the place, peer pressure, school, etc. Teens years are very rough on many people. It's tough. When I reflect on my teen years I feel bad for myself because it was very lonely as well and it was very brutal but it's just a small fraction of what life can offer you.

And it doesnt help that our families fail many of us often and counting on them is heartbreaking. It really does feel like diappoinment on repeat. But when you get older you would see that it is because they are just as broken as we are and they aren't able to help us, sometimes they cant even help themselves.

Sometimes and I always repeat to myself that its better to find a way to help ourselves and depend solely on ourselves. We are our own best friend. We can control how much we disappoint ourselves. It takes time, effort but it's possible. I say don't give up just yet. Give it some time. Be fair to yourself. You are a prince learning to be a king. This is the time to prove yourself to yourself and earn that title. And no matter what anybody says, girls or family it doesn't matter. Your opinion is the most important. Your value is high.

Try to find something that you enjoy. Work out for one, it tends to help the body heal from disappointment and heart ache. You got this my friend.