When you remove these distractions, the pain starts to show. I am more aware, more emotionally vulnerable, and constantly crying.
You have unresolved issues causing you emotional pain. You are using the things listed in the title of this thread to distract you from that emotional pain.
Find a psychologist to talk it out with. S/he can help you face that emotional pain. Ultimately that will take away the need to avoid those emotions, and block them out with the distractions you listed in the title.
Not all psychologists are the same. One that may work well for one person, may not for another. If the first person you pick doesn't seem to be helping you after a few months try another.
When starting off with a psychologist, ask them to explain to you how their therapy is supposed to work. Also ask them what you will need to do to make it work.
Good Luck.