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No matter how shit, and how hard life is. NOTHING. And I mean NOTHING, is worth hurting yourself over, or even taking your life over. I have sorely realised this now and every time I look at my arm which is strewn with scars because I thought cutting myself and attempting to kill myself would make everything go away. But I am living proof, along with many people on here, that it gets better. IT GETS SO MUCH FUCKING BETTER. I'm so lost right now too, but I'm better than it was, and if you're still in school, that clearly means you're young, and you've got your whole life ahead of you to figure out what you want to do. And you will find a job, I had severe (diagnosed) depression and anxiety, and I managed (not saying I'm superior, I'm just saying it's possible). Just because your two weeks of job hunting didn't get you very far, doesn't mean all hope is lost. I can't say anything bad about your parents, I don't know them, but they clearly seem to have slightly old fashioned ideals. If I were you, I'd sit down, and I'd say "school is really important to me right now, and the grades I get when I work my butt off (if you work your butt off, it's a huge distraction from how you feel, TRUST ME!) I'm going to get good grades, and maybe in that time, I'll find something I love and something I'm really good at, and hopefully I'll make some money from it! So please, let me focus on school now to secure my future" If I were you, I'd try my best to say something like that to make them understand. I know it's hard. And I know it feels like there's a life switch you can flick on and off, but it shouldn't be that simple. Depression is a temporary problem, suicide is a permanent solution. Your parents clearly love you because they're looking out for you. I cannot even fathom the upset and despair you would leave them with if you left the world entirely. So please. Promise me, you're going to keep going, you're going to talk to your parents, KEEP SEEING A THERAPIST (so important). And love yourself. Talk to yourself positively. Take a walk every day. Find something you love, and work hard at school.. Please stay alive. Nothing is worth your life over. You ARE special

-C

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