You really are a cry baby aren't you?

You seriously think that without that "magical" love in your life you cant be happy? That you are the only one that aint happy or doesn't have that "magical love and friends that risk everything for one another".

Fuck ... it is good you are trying now but you really made waaay too many fucking excuses.

Money aint a problem if you want friends. And shit wont happen unless you go for it.

Also relationship wise, yeah, you wont get friends that will risk their lifes for you if you dont put the same effort.

I don't care if this gets downvote to hell but you are waaay too fucking naive about the world and aren't keeping reality and anime apart from eachother.

You are literally comparing real life to fictional stories that are made in a fantasy style world. Sure they play like in the modern timeline but in no fucking world is that shit going to happen to you or me let alone any of the other dozens of other amazing stories. Your life aint a novel so stop comparing it to Toradora or w/e you want to compare it to.

Deal with reality in a way that puts the least effort on you and has the least mental toll on you. Nothing will go perfect and nothing will be an anime/novel style life for you or me or anyone of us.

Get real and start thinking about what is and is not accomplishable and what is and what is not realistic at this time.

Cause all the animes and stories you are looking at are people growing up and doing stuff, you are 27, not old enough but definitely not a highschooler that is making friends and bonds to get into college and life and blabla.

Get realistic. This is a life tip right now. Dont be the whole I will follow my passion or my dreams. Be the realistic. Financially, freetime and mentally smart. Those are things you should look into.