My life has been pretty shit recently. On the outside, I look like I'm the happiest person in the world. Have a great job, great friends, good family, my own house and vehicle. But on the inside it's just a sea of turmoil and depression and anxiety. It's led me to getting lost in the bottle on a nightly occasion and I end up pleasing myself so many times in one night, I drain myself and nothing comes out when I orgasm. It's got to stop. I feel it's just another one of evil's tools to taint my life. I'm not the most religious person but I read some Warhammer 40k and can equate the evil in our lives to the evil of chaos. It just needs to enter your heart a little and then it's only a matter of time before it corrupts. I feel my addiction to PMO is allowing that corruption inside and I'm sick of it. It's been a rough 2 days because I know just how easy it will be to make this desire go away. I can make the the urge disappear so fast but then again so can I make the dogs stop barking by having a drink. I worry I'm making too many changes about myself too quickly but I need to be reborn. I need to let go of evil and pursue good. Thanks for letting me share some of what's inside of me.