Hey, don’t worry. I’m so sorry all of this happened to you and that your peers brush it off.. It’s awful that you were put in so much danger because of their neglect. You’re well within your rights to protect yourself and get away from people who don’t love you.

I can’t say I can relate to you perfectly (I never had to go the hospital) but one of my parents is mentally ill, hated me when I was younger, and she never cared about my grades either. I got hurt no matter what and I used to be so scared of her that I would cry just from hearing her voice.

I felt similarly to you with the whole “i wish I had parents who were stereotypically harsh” whenever I heard my asian peers complaining about their parents. I never talked about mine out of some misguided feeling of shame but whenever I overheard people talking Id feel weird about it. Half “oh people can relate, I dont have to feel ashamed?” and “im still different” and of course the constant messages of loving your parents was difficult to bear when they were a source of grief and fear.

I can also relate to the indifference thing. As I grew older fear/anger and resentment turned into disgust and apathy. I think that that feeling is a sort of defense mechanism? That didn’t last forever for me, but we have different circumstances and your parents seem much worse.