I’ve been on quetiapine and lithium for 1.5 years now. I don’t remember a time where I started to “feel better”. That has not existed for me. I did not just stop feeling depressed.
What I do experience, looking back, is that I started to not feel like shit all the time. It was long and gradual and I did not notice at the time. Just kept taking my medication when I was supposed to.
But when I compare how I feel now, to how I felt then, it is actually very dramatic. I guess I feel normal, or a baseline, which is something I hadn’t had in a long time. I don’t wake up hating everything. I can have a good day if other people don’t fuck it up for me.
It took probably about a year to get to where I was able to do that for myself. Sucks because I never felt results, it was frustratingly long.
It would have been awesome to be able to just take some pills and not be depressed anymore but that’s not really how it works I guess. Not for me anyway.