I guess I was looking for reassurance that I shouldn't be so put off by the fact that I normally have to initiate sex. She definitely makes me feel desired but I often forget about that if we haven't seen each other for a bit. Hence below.

Well I was in therapy before since I sometimes can be self destructive. I hate when I get jealous or have feelings where I am not confident and then send a message to her and then later regret it. She has never reacted in a negative way and I don't go crazy with jealousy but I would rather not act out. I have had an issue with this for a while and hoped therapy could help me. I go through bouts of depression from this and found that discussing this with an online therapist helped me in the past so I am trying it again now that she is moving in and money isn't an issue. She is also supportive of me going to therapy to help improve any issues I am feeling.