The same exact thing happened to me. He made me believe I was his only one. Even after he started sleeping with her. And I used to want to end it all, so badly. But I couldn't because I did have a family with him. Now I don't get to see my kid half the time and I am so scared that one day my kid isn't going to want to live with me anymore. Especially since daddy and his new family have everything that I can't give her. I'm never getting married again and I can't have anymore kids. I doubt I'll ever make as much money as them. So every time my kid leaves I'm scared it's the last time I'll see her. But I making it, because I know she still needs me. And even though I won't ever marry again I fully believe that there is someone out there waiting for me to get better. Waiting for me to get over him so I can start dating. In fact, I'm pretty sure this guy at work is going to ask me out. A different guy was trying but I always cancelled at the last minute. I had no reason to but I did, maybe I just didn't feel anything for him. But this new guy is pretty amazing. I'm scared that I'll fuck it up but I want to try so hard to find some sort of life! I know I rambled a lot and I know you're pretty tired of people saying it will get better, but believe me. I've been in your shoes. We were together 9 and a half years. Married for six. And I've been alone for the last 2 years. I know the pain of heartbreak. I still feel it everyday. But I'm trying to be better. Just message me if you feel like talking. You can just talk to me. I won't offer anymore advice. Sometimes it's good to feel like someone may be on your side.