Just stop. Get a grip and stop. Find a wife (if they're findable these days). Apologize to your sister and don't go there anymore. Restrain yourself.

I'm not saying it would work for you but I've found in the past (long ago past) that some people turn to God, study the bible and something happens inside of them, inside their hearts, a transformation.

I think that is more in Church and also has to do with fellowship, but I think it can be done without that.

Just the heart, let it rule your mind.

I'm not much of a prayer (praying person in the traditional sense anyway) but I am quite the believer. You name the religion, I'll cite the foundation they are all built upon, bettering ourselves, respecting others, helping them when possible (except for Satanism or anything like).

I'm curious about why you wanted to disclose, talk about it. I think you'll be arrested no matter what. You know they have ways of tracing ip's, there's not much getting around that.

You can become a better person. Let this chapter be behind you.