Lost mine early high-school my dad came home acting funny again and was not really yelling at my older sister but fussing and not making any sense. My sister has downs syndrome and the biggest heart of anyone. She was trying to help him and was almost in tears because she didn't understand. Something in me snapped I threw my homework across the room marched into the den and grew up. I told my sister to go to her room she was crying her eyes out at this point kept and asking me what was wrong with daddy, I was so angry I just yelled at her to get out. I turned to the man that was supposed to be a father, a care giver, role mobel Jesus a freaking adult and didn't know him I called him the worst things I could imagine and ending with telling him to just fn passout already. I didn't stop there I then walked to my mom's room and told her to leave him she tried to fake act shocked that I would talk to her that way and I just stood there looking her until she broke down crying saying things about how it's hard and that I didn't understand. Sorry mom but sense that day I have understood. I have learned the people you lookup to the will be the ones that let you down the hardest. Sorry didn't mean for this to turn into a novel this memorie just hit me kinda hard. Happyish ending 10 years later mom and dad are still together after dad went through rehab. Family still dosent talk much about those days. Its werid to think that my dad doesn't even remember that day but I think of it has something in my passed that shaped me as an adult. This is my second time posting and it took a lot to hit the send button but I felt like I needed to get this out.